I See the Dark and Speak A Warning

The day shall come when Christ returns
the book says prepare now, earn your favor in Gods great sight
or fear the retribution which awaits unfaithful fools

To claim you have seen truth
spat from the lips of men unfaithful to Gods glory
gives you cause to fear the wrath from blind arrogance and sin
when in the end of day's all men, women, and children, in God's image are judged
the ones in holy sincerity shall join the Lord's table instantaneously
while the damned shall fall into chaos of their own making

No forgiveness is granted to those who claim belief with hearts lacking resolution to repent and save
damned are those who claim faith in the creator they would readily shun if not for petty selfishness

Until such a time when an individual can break down the walls of a human heart
when nothing is left but revelry and devotion to envelope the soul shall such a servant be born
their presence resounding and unquestionable
only then shall the doubtful rebuking mournful souls begin to see a shed of light
light that shall signify the conclusion to our scarred and flawed existence.

the makings of a new demon a warning

i speak to the clouds passing eye level

i say i shall free my feet from stones grasp

to join the clouds in freedom 

standing upon the sun, the moon, stars, and space

i shall make myself God of all

and the clouds responded with a tale

once a mortal freed his feet

he grew the wings of a swan, lustrous and white

and when he flew to the sun his wings glittered,

then burned upon the suns fire

so he replaced those wings of beauty 

turning to wings of a dragon for support on sin

when he stretched his hands to the moon 

they froze and disintegrated from his body

in his need he turned to slaws of the coldest ice fed by wicked deeds

as he looked to the stars the mortal was blinded by their beauty

so he gouged out his eyes to avoid the righteous stars through means of empty satisfaction

so he may run from that which he cannot control

finally the space he tried to breath left his lungs empty

open to the most foul vapors of arrogance

i spoke to the clouds my determination to rise to untold heights

the clouds responded with a story a warning

greed leads to injury and evil paths

the clouds fly where they do because it is above naivety but below gluttony

wisdom comes to the people who feed their minds with restraint

this way they don't twist in their favor the teachings that they have obtained.

I seek the worlds warmth

It's cold, dark

i don't know what to do

where am i 

should i run 

should i stay

i'm scared

show me the light

someone responed 

tears

i fear

ill i never know company's warmth

should i wish should i dare the world

show your face like the cheshire cat

i will wait

rebelling as long as i can i will run 

bounding through doubt and dark

searching for anything

candles flicker or suns light

i just want to see

to feel warmth

I Request from God Understanding

am I speaking to God
do i ask for myself
what request did i decide upon
all i can choose is one

out of fear should i request for forgiveness of my sins
out of love should i ask to stay by you
out of reverence should i request to hear your wisdom
no

in respect i shall request understanding
if i am able to understand my guilt i know i will be forgiven
if i am able to understand who you are i can love you as close as a brother
if i understand your teachings the wisdom the that i revere will grant itself to me

the result shall be such a greater respect than what i have now
i could not possible keep you to myself
So God may i respectfully request understanding.

The Soul Outside the Clock Defined

we who stand in time
we who walk by the seconds
fragile people, we are only human
a life may be fleeting by the clock
spanning a bridge as if it was a ruler
but an existence is immortal
immeasurable to the world
immune to the clock
this is a mortals value
this is a humans potential
here the souls span is proclaimed

All That I Know is in You and its All I Need

Why do you love me?

In my rejection of your mercy

In my lustful desires

And in my greed you wait for me

You tell me to come to my senses and I ask, why?

Why do you have such patience for me?

My arrogance tries to push you away

My ignorance attempts to create a gap between us

But somehow you always become a figure of strength by my side

Now I ask how?

God in your love, an endless ocean I stand

Watching the moon you created with all its serenity

And I suddenly feel at peace.

Content to let go of all that I want

Willing to forsake all the dislikes and begrudging emotions

Just to be in your light.

I turn from the moons quiet gaze

To watch the rising the sun which shuts out all other light in its brilliance

Its power that you created to give brilliance upon all lives that you created.

And I scream for joy

I am given the passion to pursue your glory and share your wisdom

I’ve lost all fear

And god I slowly lose my questioning spirit

Praising you for all that I am worth

And simply wanting to live through you

As you live in me

I turn now to the stars that remain in the dawn

And I burst into tears of ecstasy

How can I be anywhere close to sad?

You saved me from myself

You saved from the devil

You saved me from sin

All that I know now is the core you have become in my soul

All I need are the teachings that you have given me.

I am satisfied in you

Tides of Curved Lips

Smiles split empty spaces

Spread through crowded places

Creating scenes seemingly fulfilling

And yet void

Smiles of unexplained origins bring about uncertainty

For as they flit from face to face they may seem out of pace

And place on the side confusion

As though common place emotions are forgotten

And monotonous existences are never foregone

Even as such a youthful world

Burns through its young years at unrecorded speeds

And reminiscence is but faded history

Smiling faces become dust in the wind

Never sticking around for long

But always returning with patient times

Titles Belongs To Those Who Act Upon beliefs

Where is the world we seek to save?
How must we go about saving it?
I tell you now it is within our very grasp
but we cannot feel that which we struggle to separate ourselves from.
For we are among this struggling world.
forgetting about ourselves amidst all that struggles to save others

and even now as some save others rather than themselves
many more retire to the shackles the broke
keeping a title yet to be earned through saving those who had once stood chained beside them

In Gods Grace we live, laze, and die.
only to be asked by God on high
what make us believe we have earned our place?
how can you claim to be Gods children when you did nothing but ignore the commands of God?

I say to you now Gods word is only understood by those willing to act upon it
so do not claim that God is in your heart when you do not follow his commands
rather repent for your arrogance and plead for his grace again
because you cannot fight a devil alone when he has already won the war.

salvation is free to those who seek it
but those who seek salvation must spread what it has to offer
and should consider salvation only when they are ready to help save others.

so those who hold titles in loose grips
be aware that those titles mean nothing
unless you are ready to spread that title to the next chained slave.

Two Really Good Friends

These are two really good friends of mine, Josh Doneff is the picture on top and Matt Akin is the picture on the bottom.

If I had to use one verse that would describe their individual mindsets best those verses would be.

Hebrews 10:24- And let us consider how we may spur one another on toward love and good deeds.
is for Josh Doneff

Colossians 3:15- Let the peace of Christ rule in your hearts, since as member of one body you were called to peace. And be thankful.
is for Matt Akin

I Must Wake Up.

my life is burning
my heart sweating the worries of my mind
I have got this issue I can't fix
called distraction

I worry about the small things
I thrive on the empty things
but I forget all my godly things
and I realize my sky is falling

I'm losing my mind
my hearts close behind
and  my soul is soon to follow
I'm leaving behind
all that really matters.
to grasp what I don't need.

I need you God
your what I need
how could I be so blind
that I would miss whats right in front of me

God hold up my sky
so I can live right
so I can be the child that you want me to be.

Where to Compare With God

I saw the stars in dreams
I viewed the sun on a personal scale
and I awoke to a burning sensation
desire

I want to see god up close
to entertain a deities worth
then compare it to my own

forever is a definition of time
perception is times personal flow
but our god outside of time goes beyond forever

I flew with the red-winged black bird
to fall amongst mice in the shadows as prey
and I felt my heart fall behind me

I want to envision an immortals light
to try blocking its source
and get burned as the price

I want to test my luck
die by karma's smile
and rise in the broken ashes

black from creating the dark side of the moon
where I pulled out the famous mortal lights
 asking where God was shining

new photography blog

so i started a new plant photography blog. i wanted to let those that read this blog know, but anyways i probably won't post a whole lot to begin with. and most of it will be plants but i hope that anyone and everyone still enjoys it.

http://photogenicplants.blogspot.com/

outside my parents window

I'm jealous of my parents sometimes, they sleep through this almost daily

There is Nothing Better Than the Life I Live

In the waning moments

In the dreams

In the rain, the sun,

I smile in earnest, because I can

I look at the powder blue sky

Stained by cotton like clouds

Thinking it’s another day to chalk into a good life

Just as the lightest of breezes starts to flow

As my mind floats through its own space

As I fall from great heights to land in my bed

I grin whole heartedly

Since the dreams I experience on the comfort of my pillow

Can be the greatest peace of mind that I can receive

While I stand on the clouds

Watching the stars pass over the candy cane stripe lighthouse

Waiting for the day to come that the light shines on me

Only to open my eyes realizing the time hasn’t come yet

I just need to wait a while longer

Then I go to my window

Listening to the pitter patter of rain

The deep drum like bass of the thunder coming forth from the heavens

To finally cease as the clouds start to part

The rays of light coming from the sun show through tears in grey masses

Gold coming down softly as though to reveal what I am missing

And I smile content to live as I should

Ready to seek out the route the future has set

My unique and individual hike to live in grace

To see powder blue skies

To lightly float through the dimension of my brain

To wait for my chance to show the world I can be great

And to listen to the music that comes naturally through my windows screen

All to bring me happiness in all that I do

The Two Great Sins

            I am not sure why, I am not sure about Gods reasoning; but tonight I want to talk about what God has said to me over the course of today. God told me that as we struggle to know God our struggle in sin grows, even as our efforts and conviction to know and do what’s best for ourselves grows stronger. You may notice that something is missing, where is God’s effort, God’s conviction? That’s the problem, at some point and in some aspect of our lives we have traded Gods knowledge and conviction for what our own. We have turned to our own ideas and designs of desire and strength.

            Our greatest sin of desire has been stated in the bible as lust or adultery; this is true beyond all comparisons I can possibly make. The bible says this “the body is for the lord and the lord is for the body…” (1 Corinthians Ch. 6) I don’t really know how others might interpret this but I have to say this verse is to be paired with the fact that we are made in God’s image. Though this is a pairing that none of us would normally come up with on our own because we focus too much on our own will; I even admit that without the pastor of my church this connection never would have occurred. Our will and desire to have pleasure and to be in love. When this desire is paired with God there is no problem; but when we take these desires with ourselves in mind we fall prey to our own demons as Satan proceeds to worsen our situation. Our bodies are for the lord and without the lord we are doomed to sin and corrupt the temple that are bodies are made to be for the lord our God.

            Our greatest sin of strength is greed; and greed’s worst form is deception. Who has seen that one person on the street corner who is trying to imitate a homeless person and just doesn’t look the part; that one person who just has no clue what he is doing but is too lazy to take the opportunities that he could have if he simply worked and lived an honest life. Satan is always looking for weaknesses in our hearts hoping to create sin. Greed is a one of the greatest weaknesses and one of the easiest for Satan to exploit. In this weakness we forget God and his desire for us to know and do what is right. In the end we sometimes use deceit to gain what we want. To consider however that this is a constant happening in every person’s life cannot be said but it is true to say that at some point or another every person who has ever lived and does live has and will deceive and have greed in their hearts.

            But despite all of our selfishness and shortcomings God has given us a second chance through Jesus. All Christians know that Jesus died on the cross for our sins but this is just the gift basket it’s what is inside which matters most, eternal life; the opportunity to stand in God’s presence, a god who is willing to help his children overcome their inability to live outside of sin. God loves us but we blind ourselves to that love with desire and thoughts of how to gain our own strength.