I See the Dark and Speak A Warning

The day shall come when Christ returns
the book says prepare now, earn your favor in Gods great sight
or fear the retribution which awaits unfaithful fools

To claim you have seen truth
spat from the lips of men unfaithful to Gods glory
gives you cause to fear the wrath from blind arrogance and sin
when in the end of day's all men, women, and children, in God's image are judged
the ones in holy sincerity shall join the Lord's table instantaneously
while the damned shall fall into chaos of their own making

No forgiveness is granted to those who claim belief with hearts lacking resolution to repent and save
damned are those who claim faith in the creator they would readily shun if not for petty selfishness

Until such a time when an individual can break down the walls of a human heart
when nothing is left but revelry and devotion to envelope the soul shall such a servant be born
their presence resounding and unquestionable
only then shall the doubtful rebuking mournful souls begin to see a shed of light
light that shall signify the conclusion to our scarred and flawed existence.

All That I Know is in You and its All I Need

Why do you love me?

In my rejection of your mercy

In my lustful desires

And in my greed you wait for me

You tell me to come to my senses and I ask, why?

Why do you have such patience for me?

My arrogance tries to push you away

My ignorance attempts to create a gap between us

But somehow you always become a figure of strength by my side

Now I ask how?

God in your love, an endless ocean I stand

Watching the moon you created with all its serenity

And I suddenly feel at peace.

Content to let go of all that I want

Willing to forsake all the dislikes and begrudging emotions

Just to be in your light.

I turn from the moons quiet gaze

To watch the rising the sun which shuts out all other light in its brilliance

Its power that you created to give brilliance upon all lives that you created.

And I scream for joy

I am given the passion to pursue your glory and share your wisdom

I’ve lost all fear

And god I slowly lose my questioning spirit

Praising you for all that I am worth

And simply wanting to live through you

As you live in me

I turn now to the stars that remain in the dawn

And I burst into tears of ecstasy

How can I be anywhere close to sad?

You saved me from myself

You saved from the devil

You saved me from sin

All that I know now is the core you have become in my soul

All I need are the teachings that you have given me.

I am satisfied in you

Where to Compare With God

I saw the stars in dreams
I viewed the sun on a personal scale
and I awoke to a burning sensation
desire

I want to see god up close
to entertain a deities worth
then compare it to my own

forever is a definition of time
perception is times personal flow
but our god outside of time goes beyond forever

I flew with the red-winged black bird
to fall amongst mice in the shadows as prey
and I felt my heart fall behind me

I want to envision an immortals light
to try blocking its source
and get burned as the price

I want to test my luck
die by karma's smile
and rise in the broken ashes

black from creating the dark side of the moon
where I pulled out the famous mortal lights
 asking where God was shining

The Two Great Sins

            I am not sure why, I am not sure about Gods reasoning; but tonight I want to talk about what God has said to me over the course of today. God told me that as we struggle to know God our struggle in sin grows, even as our efforts and conviction to know and do what’s best for ourselves grows stronger. You may notice that something is missing, where is God’s effort, God’s conviction? That’s the problem, at some point and in some aspect of our lives we have traded Gods knowledge and conviction for what our own. We have turned to our own ideas and designs of desire and strength.

            Our greatest sin of desire has been stated in the bible as lust or adultery; this is true beyond all comparisons I can possibly make. The bible says this “the body is for the lord and the lord is for the body…” (1 Corinthians Ch. 6) I don’t really know how others might interpret this but I have to say this verse is to be paired with the fact that we are made in God’s image. Though this is a pairing that none of us would normally come up with on our own because we focus too much on our own will; I even admit that without the pastor of my church this connection never would have occurred. Our will and desire to have pleasure and to be in love. When this desire is paired with God there is no problem; but when we take these desires with ourselves in mind we fall prey to our own demons as Satan proceeds to worsen our situation. Our bodies are for the lord and without the lord we are doomed to sin and corrupt the temple that are bodies are made to be for the lord our God.

            Our greatest sin of strength is greed; and greed’s worst form is deception. Who has seen that one person on the street corner who is trying to imitate a homeless person and just doesn’t look the part; that one person who just has no clue what he is doing but is too lazy to take the opportunities that he could have if he simply worked and lived an honest life. Satan is always looking for weaknesses in our hearts hoping to create sin. Greed is a one of the greatest weaknesses and one of the easiest for Satan to exploit. In this weakness we forget God and his desire for us to know and do what is right. In the end we sometimes use deceit to gain what we want. To consider however that this is a constant happening in every person’s life cannot be said but it is true to say that at some point or another every person who has ever lived and does live has and will deceive and have greed in their hearts.

            But despite all of our selfishness and shortcomings God has given us a second chance through Jesus. All Christians know that Jesus died on the cross for our sins but this is just the gift basket it’s what is inside which matters most, eternal life; the opportunity to stand in God’s presence, a god who is willing to help his children overcome their inability to live outside of sin. God loves us but we blind ourselves to that love with desire and thoughts of how to gain our own strength.

In Majesty You Saved

God oh God
By grace you sent your son
In mercy and love
You sent a savior

Through the streets of Rome
Your perfect son carried the cross
Holding sin and death upon his shoulders
And when death sealed Christ's lips
The curtain tore
You came to live amongst us

In arrogant anger
We helped you save us
In fear you showed us light
You lifted the veil of sin
Your children could finally see

Now we live in free choice
Enslaved by sin
Or enraptured by you
In worship, in praise
Giving ourselves up
Many make the choice

intent upon our hearts
Your glory has no bounds
It floods our lives
as your mercy clears our eyes
No idol, not any material gain
Nothing could fill the void but you

So i create the praises for you
The one who bridged the gap
Became sent the ultimate sacrifice
Through Jesus Christ our lord

No More, I Wish to Live in Light

Grant satisfaction
Grant me grace, and courage
I feel as though
I have done nothing of consequence
I fear, I falter
I search to self preserve

Calling myself your child
I came because I lacked
I feared and strayed
I want to grow

Faith, courage
You lift me up when I have fallen
You forgive me when I confess wrong doing
You have succeeded in the impossible for mortal flesh to accomplish
You saved your people from damnation

I lived in self pity
I swam in selfish thoughts
wanting this wishing that
I left your path so many times
I dug so many holes
And you pulled me out every time

I gave my life to you
But i changed nothing
Did nothing but stay with your people

Now i say I'm starting to change
My desire is now to serve you
To grow and praise
And to speak your word
And so as you lead
 I will follow you God

Cleanse Me, and Train Me

Mercy God grant me mercy
I come before you on my knees
With regret in my heart
and ignorance in my soul
I plead for your mercy

I wish to follow the words
Live by faith and not by sight
For my eyes seem sworn against me

I open my heart unto you God
And I pray that it be washed clean
Because with a stubborn mind
I have no hope to succeed on my own

And break my mind as well Dear God
So the putrid rot may flow away
And fill the space with knowledge, and courage
To be who you designed

I found the break in Satan's mine field of temptation
I asked you to save me and you did
so now I ask to help me grow
And plead to change my life

No idol or false belief
Nor fear or doubt shall stop me
I know I'll falter
I know I'll doubt
But hold strong
I will hold strong in you

Raise Me Well

Raise me well oh father God
I come in tatters searching for you
No more running
No more false hood

Forgive me God
for I am not worthy
I live in sin
and lay in lies

Raise me well God
So I may live in your name
Enter me oh God
So I may emit your love

Strip me oh God
Of all desires for mortal impurity
Wash me oh God
So I my be rid of material obsession

Raise me well oh great God
So I may chase after you
Give me strength awesome God
To fight the obstacles thrown in my path

Let your love wash over me
And liberate me from sins chains
I have accepted you oh God
I am ready to grow

Rob Bell : Drops Like Stars

This is something that I need to do for the first time right now. Write a book review.

The Book by Rob Bell Drops Like Stars has proven within the first thirty five pages to one of the most fantastic books that I have ever read. Using the unusual and obscure stories that some would never think to look at in their wildest dreams he weaves a narration that starts to totally decimate the ideas our society uses to conform in day to day life.

Rob starts with the Jesus' parable of the lost son Luke 15: 11-32 and the story goes something like this...

"Jesus told a story about a man who had two sons. The story begins with the younger son asking for his share of the inheritance, which in first century Jewish culture was a deeply offensive request, the equivalent to saying, dad I wish you were dead" (Bell 10). If anyone has read the bible then they might remember this parable. What was noticed by Rob that is the story ends unresolved; "he said to him, son, you are always with me, and all that is mine is yours. But it was appropriate to be glad and celebrate, for this, your brother, was dead and is alive again. He was lost and is found again" (Luke 15:31-32).

This is the opening of a book which has captured a glimpse of what is wrong with society. "Jesus doesn't give the story the proper Hollywood ending we've all come to expect" (Bell 14-15). so why should people view the world has having that Hollywood ending that is so badly deserved sometimes. this is just the beginning of a book that captures the way that captures the fascination that everyone should have in Jesus.

the reader must find the rest out for themselves. I must refuse to tell the rest in fear of ruining the ideas that people should hear from the one who speaks them so well; Rob Bell.