Thursday, September 20, 2018

The Fade of Society


Society’s future blurred on the edge of unknown

Twisting want’s and desires to strangle needs

Trapped amongst stagnation of greed



Falling fast as a final sun sets

Raging, fading below a lost horizon

Faithless and fouls as refuse amongst the gutter

Scorned by pain, coveted by heresy

The fall is coming



The good fights in a void

Not knowing the enemy

Where does peace and freedom find solace

Which direction does love turn hearts key

What is worth life lived



Peace hides amongst the salt flats

Wasting in agony and degrading amongst the parasites



Freedom finds solace amidst the fields of the dead

A war torn corpse piled amongst death and decay



Love held the wrong key

Jammed into a keyhole misshapen by misplaced effort



As the truth fails and the brave fade away

The time savagery and corruption arrives

What will be left when all is done

What will be rebuilt or forgotten



Only time will tell the full story

And that will a woeful eternity

Sunday, November 22, 2015

            I don’t hate this country I am worried for it. I listen to those around me, and I look at what mass and social media are saying and I see a great many discussions, beliefs and decisions that are completely divergent or even contradictory from what this country was founded upon, and I am worried.
Right now one of the big faces everywhere I look is the Syrian refugees vs. our military veterans. One of the biggest mistakes that we could make right now is to turn away those innocent people that came to us for help. Civilian lives women children and elderly all caught in the crossfire of a war the even we ourselves are helping to supply. The United States needs to maintain a conscience for all of its actions not just the actions that are most suitable to our personal emotions.
We can still help our veterans. They deserve far more than anything we have offered them. A great majority of veterans really don’t know much more than how to fight, how to wage war. Not to mention the great number of veterans that do know more than how to fight but are now unable to because of injuries physical and mental that prevent them from maintaining a stable capacity to do the jobs that they were trained to do.
When it comes to the idea that U.S.A citizens are deluding themselves into the idea that we should choose one or the other; Syrian refugees, or military veterans. Such a thought stupid and wrong. I am tired of listening to everyone around me yelling for a split decision when doing both is the moral and the American thing to do. The U.S.A was founded as a country meant to do everything in its power to act upon the right decisions of equality and prosperity. THE RIGHT TO THE PURSUIT OF HAPPINESS. Part of this I believe is maintaining the responsibility to help those whom we have obstructed from their own opportunity to this right as well as those who are no longer capable of obtaining this right for themselves.

This is not a decision of one or the other, we can and we should do both. Not for religious or political reasons, rather because of the simple reason that we are all human. Going back to a church song that was popular when I was a child “red and yellow, black and white, all are loved in Jesus light”. It is time we started to love the world around us as we love ourselves and our families. 

Saturday, August 1, 2015

All of the voices are raging in my head! One thousand different thoughts clamoring to be heard. As I struggle to clear the through the fog of my anger that seems to stem from nothing more than a black pit at the back of my mind. It is the thought of soaring dreams that permeates my very being.

Though the limit of mans ability's goes only so far as his knowledge, it is man's potential to drive beyond knowledge into the realm of sheer faith that proves the worth of dreams. All in thanks to a sinful lust bent towards greater intellect, and a condemning obsession to light a path through such unknown voids only blind passion could penetrate.

This being a lesson so many have learned before me, it becomes difficult to define the progression of mans questing. The answer itself could be considered at its core to be the very history on which mankind has built itself, though this results in the problem of history ultimately being biased towards the inclusive and exclusive judgment of those who wrote the history books we pride ourselves on.

As a result of this we continue to climb higher on a constantly less stable footing towards the very edge of a figurative cliff. Once here we must make a decision. Jump off of that cliff or simply halt altogether. Should we stop the result will be obvious and suicidal stagnation. Should we jump the option  then becomes fall to our demise, or learn to surpass whatever fate me have been in store.

Ultimately the final step will be determined by the tenacity of the human race. When our conviction stops pushing only then will we fall.


Friday, June 26, 2015


What do I know?
What do I understand?
What do I acknowledge?
 
I know that life is meant as opportunity
To grow myself and learn what I’m meant to become
Knowledge that I should make the most of who I am and who I will grow into
 
I understand that time moves faster that I want it too
That knowing myself is like wading up river rapids
I understand that self-guidance couldn’t exist since it is through the wisdom of others that foot holds in understanding are gained
 
I acknowledge that I will never be alone, as even now I lose faith in the world around me
God may exist but it is those few around me who I act upon as support.
 
Without the good will of friends and family we are without hope of understanding ourselves.
We must maintain the connections that we obtain for they are what build us.

Monday, December 22, 2014

A refresh on the holiday celebration.



It's been a while i must say. to long in fact, though not without reason. I have been focusing on my other hobby photography when I can as well as work. above is just one example of what i have been doing. 

As it's nearing Christmas many thoughts have been on my mind. one of which is just how materialistic and culturally meaningless the holiday's have become. It has actually gotten to the point where I am legitimately uncomfortable celebrating Christmas the way my family normally does because there is no spiritual mindset behind the celebration any more. Yeah we spend time together as a family and we have a wonderful time but that's the limit. It's disappointing to say the least. 

So this year for those people who are interested in considering an idea with me, Let me suggest that this year take a couple of hours out of your Christmas for yourself. keep nothing more than a bible and a prayer book by your side, just out of curiosity to see what God will bring to the surface in your heart. It's just an idea by no means does anyone have to listen should they read this and think it a strange or unnecessary opportunity. But I think it should be time we all got back to the basics of what Christmas and the holiday season were truly about. Not simply family or Friends or giving, rather the God or deity we all formed these holiday's to celebrate and honor.

Thursday, November 21, 2013

Monday, October 21, 2013

I See the Dark and Speak A Warning

The day shall come when Christ returns
the book says prepare now, earn your favor in Gods great sight
or fear the retribution which awaits unfaithful fools

To claim you have seen truth
spat from the lips of men unfaithful to Gods glory
gives you cause to fear the wrath from blind arrogance and sin
when in the end of day's all men, women, and children, in God's image are judged
the ones in holy sincerity shall join the Lord's table instantaneously
while the damned shall fall into chaos of their own making

No forgiveness is granted to those who claim belief with hearts lacking resolution to repent and save
damned are those who claim faith in the creator they would readily shun if not for petty selfishness

Until such a time when an individual can break down the walls of a human heart
when nothing is left but revelry and devotion to envelope the soul shall such a servant be born
their presence resounding and unquestionable
only then shall the doubtful rebuking mournful souls begin to see a shed of light
light that shall signify the conclusion to our scarred and flawed existence.

Thursday, February 7, 2013

God in The Free Mind

What is reality but an opportunity to dream. What is a Dream but a fruit of the expansive mind. Imagination that cannot be quenched, nonexistent boundaries,belonging to a shattered framework as infinite ideas form, fantasies are created, and dreams nurtured.

God exists as a being outside of time this is truth. It is because God exists as part of our minds, a being representing the conscious potential of freedom. Freedom to unite and choose our own opportunities. Freedom to do what each individual would only do for him or her self.

 Human beings only grow to understand God as they grow to understand themselves. In the essence of searching for God humans search their own lives inadvertently for the ultimate reason that God has placed them on the earth. humans grow in freedom and in turn are trapped by it at the same time through the idea that God gave us life and that as Gods children they can only do what he desires of them.

Slowly humans lose their freedom to choose what kind of life that they want to live simply because  they grow attached to the search for God in their own personal lives and seek to better the understanding of God for themselves and those around them whom they believe need to follow the same ideas. They lose to the power of time as they become trapped in a new framework built by following each other in a religion. A religion that can ultimately break the flow of a free mind.

Imagination is powerful, God is powerful, and a mind without restriction created by settling for the beliefs of others is the most powerful. Reality is an opportunity to dream, and a dream is an opportunity to become the greatest that a person can be. God belongs the world and the world belongs to God the link between the two is a free mind.

Tuesday, November 27, 2012

the makings of a new demon a warning


i speak to the clouds passing eye level
i say i shall free my feet from stones grasp
to join the clouds in freedom 
standing upon the sun, the moon, stars, and space
i shall make myself God of all

and the clouds responded with a tale

once a mortal freed his feet
he grew the wings of a swan, lustrous and white
and when he flew to the sun his wings glittered,
then burned upon the suns fire
so he replaced those wings of beauty 
turning to wings of a dragon for support on sin

when he stretched his hands to the moon 
they froze and disintegrated from his body
in his need he turned to slaws of the coldest ice fed by wicked deeds

as he looked to the stars the mortal was blinded by their beauty
so he gouged out his eyes to avoid the righteous stars through means of empty satisfaction
so he may run from that which he cannot control

finally the space he tried to breath left his lungs empty
open to the most foul vapors of arrogance

i spoke to the clouds my determination to rise to untold heights
the clouds responded with a story a warning
greed leads to injury and evil paths
the clouds fly where they do because it is above naivety but below gluttony
wisdom comes to the people who feed their minds with restraint
this way they don't twist in their favor the teachings that they have obtained.

Monday, November 26, 2012

I seek the worlds warmth


It's cold, dark
i don't know what to do
where am i 
should i run 
should i stay
i'm scared
show me the light
someone responed 
tears
i fear
ill i never know company's warmth
should i wish should i dare the world
show your face like the cheshire cat
i will wait
rebelling as long as i can i will run 
bounding through doubt and dark
searching for anything
candles flicker or suns light
i just want to see
to feel warmth

Sunday, November 11, 2012

Pardon Me but I Need to Vent.

wisdom coupled with arrogance is nothing more than intelligence that can't be used.

I have become disappointed with the previous generation of people. I have come to believe that many think the younger generation won't understand the situations that the older generation has been through. I am going to say right here THAT IS BULLSHIT. Much  of the older generation whom I have met have become bitter and arrogant. I repeat arrogant because there is no better word that I can think of to portray the attitude of the people whom I have met recently. Now this does not include the whole of the generation before my own but this is simply a reminder to those who read this and are willing to listen that humility is one of the largest keys to wisdom you can find. I will not pretend to be an expert on this matter or any matter in fact. i am a firm believer that anything worth learning about has no limit to the knowledge that can come from it. This is nothing more than a reminder that people to treat each other as equals without taking into account age or life experience. treat others with an open heart that has no expectations and you shall more often than not receive similar treatment.

Tuesday, October 2, 2012

I Request from God Understanding

am I speaking to God
do i ask for myself
what request did i decide upon
all i can choose is one

out of fear should i request for forgiveness of my sins
out of love should i ask to stay by you
out of reverence should i request to hear your wisdom
no

in respect i shall request understanding
if i am able to understand my guilt i know i will be forgiven
if i am able to understand who you are i can love you as close as a brother
if i understand your teachings the wisdom the that i revere will grant itself to me

the result shall be such a greater respect than what i have now
i could not possible keep you to myself
So God may i respectfully request understanding.

The Soul Outside the Clock Defined

we who stand in time
we who walk by the seconds
fragile people, we are only human
a life may be fleeting by the clock
spanning a bridge as if it was a ruler
but an existence is immortal
immeasurable to the world
immune to the clock
this is a mortals value
this is a humans potential
here the souls span is proclaimed


Monday, July 2, 2012

i am back.

sorry for having such a long absence. i haven't been able to figure out what i should be writing about for quite some time. the previous post is the first poem that i have written and actually completed in several months if not longer.

All That I Know is in You and its All I Need


Why do you love me?
In my rejection of your mercy
In my lustful desires
And in my greed you wait for me
You tell me to come to my senses and I ask, why?

Why do you have such patience for me?
My arrogance tries to push you away
My ignorance attempts to create a gap between us
But somehow you always become a figure of strength by my side
Now I ask how?

God in your love, an endless ocean I stand
Watching the moon you created with all its serenity
And I suddenly feel at peace.
Content to let go of all that I want
Willing to forsake all the dislikes and begrudging emotions
Just to be in your light.

I turn from the moons quiet gaze
To watch the rising the sun which shuts out all other light in its brilliance
Its power that you created to give brilliance upon all lives that you created.
And I scream for joy
I am given the passion to pursue your glory and share your wisdom
I’ve lost all fear

And god I slowly lose my questioning spirit
Praising you for all that I am worth
And simply wanting to live through you
As you live in me

I turn now to the stars that remain in the dawn
And I burst into tears of ecstasy
How can I be anywhere close to sad?
You saved me from myself
You saved from the devil
You saved me from sin

All that I know now is the core you have become in my soul
All I need are the teachings that you have given me.
I am satisfied in you

Thursday, January 19, 2012

Tides of Curved Lips


Smiles split empty spaces
Spread through crowded places
Creating scenes seemingly fulfilling
And yet void

Smiles of unexplained origins bring about uncertainty
For as they flit from face to face they may seem out of pace
And place on the side confusion

As though common place emotions are forgotten
And monotonous existences are never foregone
Even as such a youthful world
Burns through its young years at unrecorded speeds
And reminiscence is but faded history

Smiling faces become dust in the wind
Never sticking around for long
But always returning with patient times

Wednesday, January 18, 2012

Titles Belongs To Those Who Act Upon beliefs

Where is the world we seek to save?
How must we go about saving it?
I tell you now it is within our very grasp
but we cannot feel that which we struggle to separate ourselves from.
For we are among this struggling world.
forgetting about ourselves amidst all that struggles to save others

and even now as some save others rather than themselves
many more retire to the shackles the broke
keeping a title yet to be earned through saving those who had once stood chained beside them

In Gods Grace we live, laze, and die.
only to be asked by God on high
what make us believe we have earned our place?
how can you claim to be Gods children when you did nothing but ignore the commands of God?

I say to you now Gods word is only understood by those willing to act upon it
so do not claim that God is in your heart when you do not follow his commands
rather repent for your arrogance and plead for his grace again
because you cannot fight a devil alone when he has already won the war.

salvation is free to those who seek it
but those who seek salvation must spread what it has to offer
and should consider salvation only when they are ready to help save others.

so those who hold titles in loose grips
be aware that those titles mean nothing
unless you are ready to spread that title to the next chained slave.

Two Really Good Friends



These are two really good friends of mine, Josh Doneff is the picture on top and Matt Akin is the picture on the bottom.

If I had to use one verse that would describe their individual mindsets best those verses would be.

Hebrews 10:24- And let us consider how we may spur one another on toward love and good deeds.
is for Josh Doneff

Colossians 3:15- Let the peace of Christ rule in your hearts, since as member of one body you were called to peace. And be thankful.
is for Matt Akin

Thursday, December 22, 2011

I Must Wake Up.

my life is burning
my heart sweating the worries of my mind
I have got this issue I can't fix
called distraction

I worry about the small things
I thrive on the empty things
but I forget all my godly things
and I realize my sky is falling

I'm losing my mind
my hearts close behind
and  my soul is soon to follow
I'm leaving behind
all that really matters.
to grasp what I don't need.

I need you God
your what I need
how could I be so blind
that I would miss whats right in front of me

God hold up my sky
so I can live right
so I can be the child that you want me to be.